Rollercoaster Scariness

If I had to describe my state of mind at the moment it would be the following;

upside down and full of vomit

Remember when you were little and you'd go to a themepark and you'd wait in line for ages for that one scary ride, and the anticipation builds up the whole time until you're at the front and and the anxiety of going on the ride has actually overwhelmed you to the point where you don't want to go through with it anymore.

But you don't back out. You allow yourself to be strapped into the harness and thoughts of falling out and cracking your head open run through your mind. Maybe you even shed some secret tears as you realise you can't back out now.

Then then ride starts and you scream the whole time and have your eyes closed and pray to come out of the  other side alive. Then once it's all over you feel exhilerated and want to do it again.

That is what birth is like...... I assume. I haven't got to the front of the rollercoaster line yet.